Little Blessings Cakes and More
by Rebecca Bourassa
(New Milford PA)
This Cake Was Donated To Jaylay Who Was Born With Krabbes Disease. She Passed A Few Short Months Later
My name is Rebecca and I am from a small town in PA.
My husband and I lost our son on Feb 1, 03 .... He was just 9months old. My heart was broken and I wasn't sure I could pick up all the pieces and carry on without him.
My son died from a rare disease called Krabbes disease, it's so rare because both parents have to carry a defective gene and pass it to the child. There is a 25% chance every time we have a child. Shortly after his passing I found out we were expecting again. I was devastated to learn at 12 weeks that this baby too would be born with Krabbes.
I Believe in Miracles
So many emotions went through me. Why? How? it can't be .. And then a phone call came that changed my life. A Dr called and said "Mrs Bourassa, we have your appointment made for your abortion." I must say to hear those words made it all sink in. I held it together and said "do you believe in miracles? I do and you will have to cancel that appointment because no matter what I have been blessed with this child for a reason."
My son Joshua had a cord blood transplant at birth and was the 9th baby to have it done at Duke University in NC.
The Power Of A Smile
The first year we spent at the hospital, I saw so much pain and suffering in so many children, yet there was something about all of them. It was Their smile. As ill as some of those kids were they never complained, they never bullied one another, they never sat there feeling sorry for themselves , they lived and battled whatever disease they had with a smile to the very end.
I learned so much from all these children and they all blessed me in a way I can't even explain. Was it tough? Yes. I knew what some of those parents felt and
to lose a child is honestly the worst feeling any parent could ever feel and it never goes away.
The Healing Power Of Baking Cakes
Instead of sitting home feeling bad for losing a son, having a son that needs around the clock care, and not knowing what tomorrow would bring, I trusted in God and started doing something I enjoyed .. I started baking cakes ..
My heart was for children, and going through what I have been through just with my 2 boys, I knew I could put all my sorrow, my tears, and all my joy into creating a cake for a critically ill child. The cakes would not cure them but for that moment it would let them forget about what illness they had. To see a child's face light up over a cake is one of the greatest blessings for me.
I have people that have heard my story come to me and say "I am so sorry" ...my reply is, "don't be sorry for me I am forever changed and blessed because I was chosen to be their mommy."
When I make a cake, and I know what it is for, it fills my heart with so much joy and happiness. Even when I see the imperfections on it. The child never see's that it is not perfect. They light up a room with their smile and for that few minutes the illness is forgotten. I can say I made a difference in a child's life today and they continue to make a difference in mine ..
My dream is to have a small shop called Little Blessings Cakes and More
where handicapped children can come and know that they are loved. They will see how much of a difference they can make in this world and that it's the little blessings that make the biggest difference.
Until that day I will continue to bake and make cakes for some of the greatest kids on this earth just to see their smiles.